Well where to start! First and foremost I love you all so much and I am so very grateful for each one of you. I know this is going to be a bit winded but Im hoping that you can take some time to to read through this and hear my heart as well as what I feel like God is speaking to me about our family and what amazing plans He has for this family! This family is unique in many ways and I know and believe that God has favor on us. I know favor doesn't always look how we would like it to look but the reality is He loves us and has had his hand upon our lives.
Ive shared with some of you that God really speaks to me through dreams. Ive had so many dreams regarding our family and really felt like it was time to start sharing some of them. This one specifically I feel like is to timely with the new year, I had this dream the night of Dec. 31st, and I want to share what I feel Gods heart is for us! So here I am doing my best trying to communicate to all of you just that.
As you know sometimes dreams are hard to piece together after you've woken up if you don't focus pretty quickly on them. Ive gotten better at writing them down immediately but sometimes I still can't remember everything. So this one I will give you the snippets that I felt were most relevant and I really felt were highlighted to me when reviewing the dream with God and asking Him what He is communicating to me. A tiny bit of background, Ive found that the dreams that I feel God speaks to me the most always take place at Clay and Roxys house. I believe this is because the house itself house been a constant and stability in my life regardless of any of the surrounding circumstances in my life.
Alright to the dream...finally...haha! Please stay with me or come back when you have time ;). All right, I'm gonna do my best to put things in order but I might go back-and-forth a little ....Im at uncle and aunties house, the house is being remodeled. The back porch area and the wall outside the pantry area is being enclosed and redone all of the flooring has been pulled out uncle is literally on his knees pulling the flooring out. The walls are also being redone and there's just wood planks on the walls, there is a lot of construction going on in the house. There are new boxes of stuff, huge stacks of new supplies for the house, in the dream I feel curious and I'm like how did we get all of this stuff here because it's ALOT of stuff, I find out that Roxy placed a huge order for all of the supplies and this big semi truck came and delivered them all and there's just stacks and stacks of supplies. There are stacks of new flooring as well as these large air filters, it honestly feels like to much, uncle is starting to install the new flooring and I just remember the color of it is like this vibrant turquoise color, at one point Im standing at the back doors of the office and my dad and Jamie walk into the front doors of the office but it's just the wooden walls, nothing complete in the house its really just in shambles but they are actually moving in for a short period of time because there's construction going on at their house and they need a place to stay. They put their stuff in Jordans old room. The house is in shambles, then, I don't know if it's all at once, but K C is there and she's also moving in because her and Matt have something going on at their house and they're going to be staying in the baby room. The whole family is there, and everything in the house is kind of in chaos, but I feel peace, like it doesn't seem chaotic, it just seems very peaceful. Another part of the dream that really was very vivid to me is Tony and I have like this tiny house in the back by the work shed and it flies, but we didn't realize that it could fly and so we're there and little Gregg is showing us how to use it. Our house lifts off of the ground and we go up just enough to where we hit the clouds and we can see an aerial view of the house. But we have to land it and bring it back down. We have to learn how to redirect it back down to its designated spot in the yard. Anyways back to the house... there comes a point in the dream where, like the walls are getting completed and they're all white and it just seems really clean and fresh and open but I realize that we didn't knock out the pantry wall and we've moved the washer and dryer into the new space outside... its outside but it's like inside the house but the pantry is still filled with a ton of junk and I say we need to knock this wall out and get rid of the pantry. We need to clean everything out and then we can put wood shelves in this new area and just keep it really neat and open. Another part of the dream is on the side of the house where everybody usually parks. Uncle has built like this really unique gating system around the whole area. It's all gated off, but it's like black mesh like it's not a permanent gate and within it is new grass growing, it is freshly sprouted but very delicate, we can't step on it yet obviously until it's strong. SOOO those are the main points of the dream if you've made it this far wohoooooo! Now onto what I felt when processing it all with the Lord.
This year for our family will be year of restoration! I felt like it is initially within our family but it will also be an overflow into all of our extended families as well. There is going to be a rebuilding of relationships but also friendships within the family. We will need to rely on each other but also trust each other, we will need to forgive each other and let all the junk go. As I processed this I opened up for my daily reading...Ive been reading Ephesians because we just started a class on it and wanted to get a head start...I opened up to this scripture this morning...
Ephesians 4:17-5:21....Living The New Life...please go read it all but here is a snippet 29 No foul language should come from your mouth, but only what is good for building up someone in need, so that it gives grace to those who hear. 30 And don’t grieve God’s Holy Spirit. You were sealed by him for the day of redemption. 31 Let all bitterness, anger and wrath, shouting and slander be removed from you, along with all malice. 32 And be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving one another, just as God also forgave you in Christ.
Which led to Galatians 5:22-26 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. The law is not against such things.24 Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.
And lastly to Genesis 2 which is talking about the Garden of Eden. Which I really felt highlighted the grass area in the dream. I'll come back to that. ( ALL the scriptures were part of the days preplanned reading I did not go searching for specific ones to match!)
Some key things. Obviously the remodeling. Like I said the home itself represents the stability of the family, and the construction is the reconstruction of the family, construction is never easy and can be messy, but in order for things to be fully restored the work has to be put in. Are we willing to put in the work for the things that matter more then anything. Are we willing to be quick to forgive and always love. The tile flooring, the air filters and the walls...
-The tiles were a vibrant turquoise I did a quick search on turquoise on its significance in dreams and literally found this exact thing..."Laying turquoise tiles - is a sign of mutual love"...I was like WHAT! Definition of mutual love..Mutual love means you can feel secure that you both love and love equally. A mutual love is not a love that is only given, but also a love that is received. I guess ultimately we can ask ourselves are we loving each other?
-The filters... they are all being replaced...replacing the dirty filters... the things that we may have been viewing wrongly will be given new filters so that we can process things clearly with new fresh air.
-The walls...Walls can represent your codes of behavior, your belief systems, and attitudes. Things you think and feel that keep you the way you are, or that you're afraid to go outside of. The walls are being completely knocked out and made new! Will you be open to change?
-The temporary gate/grass..Gen 2 talks about the garden....At the time that the Lord God made the earth and the heavens, 5 no shrub of the field had yet grown on the land, and no plant of the field had yet sprouted, for the Lord God had not made it rain on the land, and there was no man to work the ground........8 The Lord God planted a garden in Eden, in the east, and there he placed the man he had formed. 9 The Lord God caused to grow out of the ground every tree pleasing in appearance and good for food, including the tree of life in the middle of the garden, as well as the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.10 A river went out from Eden to water the garden......15 The Lord God took the man and placed him in the garden of Eden to work it and watch over it.
I felt like this was another key part of the dream. Just like the Garden, The Lord God caused the growth and the reseeding, He is planting a "new garden" for our family a new place of peace and rest for us. The gate is temporary and is meant to be taken down and shared. Our family is meant to be a safe space for many...not just us! But in order for that to happen we as a family need to be united and strong, so that the gates can be removed we need to love and let go, we need to nurture and care for each other with no bitterness, anger or resentment.
I know that there is a lot here and there is still more that I felt while processing everything. If there's one thing that I can say as I wrap up is to just encourage each of you to let this be a year of Love and Restoration. Let's lean into this let's lean into Him, and be open to what God is wanting to do! What steps can we each individually take to pursue this for our family. Can we all spend some time with the Lord and ask Him to show us HIS heart for each other. And then take the necessary steps.
1 John 4:16 And we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us.
God is love, and the one who remains in love remains in God, and God remains in him.
Ive added the comment section below so that you can add insight or encouragement and we can share with each other any more insight any of you may have. Im figuring out how to put together a page that we can share prayer requests and testimonies and dreams and just whatever else we would like to share! Thanks for reading and being a pivotal part of this family. We each hold such a unique role and we all need each other! Love you guys!!!
Also laughing cause I couldn't find the photoshopped photo without the gap between Tony and Jamie, but the reason for the gap haha me and Tony where setting everyone up and had to run to get in the photo! They made clear that they really do love us bahahhahaaa!
Also this is a hidden page so only we can see it ;)